One last relationship fuck you from Jen

 OK, so today I discovered that my soon to be ex wife not only decided to dump me, but that she managed to start up a new relationship immediately. Am I wrong for thinking that a slight pause after ending an 18+ year relationship is not unreasonable? I don't expect her to sit around pining away for me, but it would be nice if there was at least a pause before diving into a new relationship.

I am now going to be petty as fuck for a few minutes. 

First and foremost, while I am not a paragon of male perfection, I am more than a little annoyed at the guy I was replaced with. I am not impressed appearance-wise. I don't know, maybe he has a really good game or has a big dick or something. But I am hurt to have been tossed aside for some doughy looking white guy. 

While I didn't specifically wish the guy any ill will (hell, I didn't know he existed until today) I am taking a certain amount of evil glee in the fact that he died so soon after the start of the relationship. Not gonna lie, the petty fucker inside me is laughing like a total goon. 

Now if only I could get his goddamned housing situation sorted out. It would make me feel a whole lot better to get the fuck out of this house and away from this woman.

Welp. That's that.

 Well, got asked to get ready to file for divorce in a couple of months. Gonna be fun finding a new place to live and extracting my financial life out of this marriage. At least I can go back to being the quiet hermit I used to be. I will only have my own neuroses to deal with instead of a household's.

I really don't know what to do here

OK, so my wife insists that we are not done, but I am not getting that feeling from my actual life. I will be managing the household for six months starting at the end of September, but I think I will also be setting up my independent life during that time. We shall see what happens after that 6 months. I don't really think it will result in me having a happy home life.

Yup. It's done

 My wife comes back from a two week road trip and the dog gets 5 minutes of hugs and kisses and I barely get 10 words. Guess I need to seriously start looking for a new place to live.

Shit.

My life is shit

 Lemme see. I think my kidney is failing. Again. I have no idea if I am still going to have a marraige for much longer. I am having vision problems again.I am losing so much focus on my job, I am not sure I will have that much longer. I'm not sure I have any close friends left. That one is mostly my fault, but it is an issue. One of my kids I am pretty sure hates me. My Mom died a few months ago and I still cant deal with it. Hell, I can't even seem to take any joy in reading of video games. How fucked is that?

I'm not sure how much worse my life can get without it totally imploding. I'm stuck in this weird position of trying to figure out what significant portion of my life is going to implode first and then figuring out if it is  the thing that drives me over the edge. 

I hate this shit.

God Damn You, George H. W. Bush!

Every time I hear Clarence Thomas say something relating to a SCOTUS decision, I hate him a little more. The guy makes me embarrassed to be black! While I know there is no monolithic "Black Vote," Clarence Thomas seems to operate in a universe that makes absolutely no sense.

Why, oh why can he not suffer a massive heart attack sometime soon so that we can be rid of his insane stupidity and his ability to use that stupidity to undermine my country again and again?

Funny how things work

Not that it matters at this point, but my last post about my job? Proved to be quite prophetic. Within a few days of that post I might add.

Things that suck...

My Job. For as long as I have it. Which, I might add, could be a negative number.

Google+

I'm giving Google+ a try. We'll see if it eliminates some of the annoyances of Facebook.

Almost forgot I had this thing

Wow. I should pay more attention to this.

Short catch-up message: I'm working as a contractor for USTRANSCOM and I am not having fun with it. Not liking the uncertainty of contracting these days. I'm still living in St Louis. I am still astounded that I am a homeowner. still not sure it was a good idea. Wondering if I am going to survive raising two kids to adulthood at this point. Health-wise I am doing just fine, though I could probably stand to lose some weight, but hey, who couldn't these days? :-)

General status

Just wanted to make sure someone was still reading this! :-)

Life is still an adventure, though my health is doing well overall. I missed work today because the kids got me sick over the weekend. Looks like it is a short term thing and I should be back at work tomorrow.

Bought a new car to deal with having to cart around a bunch of kids.

Trying to reign in the spending in general right now. Not sure how I managed to spend as much money as I have over the last year, bu there you have it.

Where have I been for the last month?

Wow. Missed an entire month of posting.

Here's a quick recap:

Finally settled the whole mortgage mess. I have a mortgage that I will be paying next month.

Got most of the holiday crap taken care of.

Cooked Thanksgiving dinner and got good comments all around from the diners.

Changed employers without changing jobs and got a nice raise while doing so.

Went to way too many children's school functions. More to come! :-)

Contemplated running away! :-)

Almost to the big 4-0

Ah yes, another year older. Got some gray in the mustache/beard to go along with it too. I can't wait until next year when I can go buy a motorcycle! :-)

Fatherhood is sneaking up on me...

I find myself enjoying the kid's preparation for Halloween way too much. I wanna go back to being the somewhat young curmudgeon I was...

Why me?

OK, so I still have not heard back from the Mortgage guy. Why is this so hard?

More fun for me.

Just great. I have another cold. Hopefully, this one will not turn into pneumonia like the last one...

At least that is sorted out

It looks like my mortgage is going to a different bank. My interest rate fell a bit, but my PMI went up. In the end it is a wash. Apparently this is all going to be sorted out by the end of the week. Hopefully it will work this time. The nice thing is that I apparently get another couple of months without paying a mortgage. I should be able to save up a bit of cash and go into this much better off that I expected.

Mortgage issues

Should I be concerned that I have no idea who currently holds my mortgage? As of right now, the mortgage broker I used has paid the money and is waiting for the bank to stop asking for silly things to get the money from them. I'm not sure why the bank keeps asking for more stuff, but seeing as how I was supposed to be making my first payment sometime in October, the fact that I am not sure who owns this thing and I have not received any information regarding who I am supposed to pay is making me a little nervous. Here's hoping I don't suddenly find myself with no mortgage and owing a truckload of money real fast or something like that...

Dread Maintenance

I went and got my hair cleaned up yesterday. I really liked the place. The people were nice, the work was good and they even threw in a free shave. While it wasn't cheap, it was not as expensive as the place I went to in MPLS. Nothing to complain about there! They'll be getting more of my money in the future.

Housewarming

Had the housewarming yesterday and it went well. The downside is that I now have a mountain of food left over. I really need to learn moderation when buying food one of these days. :-)